YanMei

28/11/11

2011-11-28T23:53:00.003+08:00

原来让一个人对自己感到失望，是如此痛心的事。

原本以为，有一些人是可以接受自己的一切好与坏，

但是其实不管别人如何的认同你，有一些行为他还是无法全然的接受。

可奇怪的是，当他将他的意见表态后，有的不是愤怒，不是想维护自己的心态。

有的却只有眼泪。

原来，有时候刻意的坚强和开朗久了会养成百毒不侵的态度。

渐渐变得不在乎。

是真是假，既然连自己也给骗了。

难道我真的不再乎这些我该争取的？

还是我已经忘了怎么去争去拼。

你问我为什么不接你的电话，

其实是我怕接了要承认你的指责。

原来，我早就对自己失望了，所以不争不抢，没上进心。

不过如此。

2011-06-30T16:26:00.001+08:00

有没有一种巧克力吃的是一辈子等待却又失败的苦涩甜味。

有没有一种痛，在伤口划上第二道便没了知觉。

有没有一种人在一错再错后，发现自己原来不应该尝试找回别人的信赖，而是做好自己的本份。

或许，你的一时糊涂只是你二次的无心之过。但你却毁了我最爱的他。

每个人都应该有一次改变过的机会。
这机会不是每个人都能宽容的给与。
你却这样的伤透她的心。

她要是再给你证实自己的机会。
是傻。是爱。
还是无奈？

PMS

2011-04-19T23:59:00.002+08:00

人就是这样。

永远以自我为中心。

即使了解这点，也未必能成功地避免。

最近，我就是这样。

无时无刻都感觉心烦。

心情的起伏，随时随地都有可能。

不要为我为什么？

这样只会让我更毛躁。

反正我就是气，不爽，郁闷。

看到我身边的乌云时，离我远一点。

有一种爱

2011-04-07T22:00:00.006+08:00

有一种爱,

无论再痛你也不会割舍.

无论它撑的有多紧,你还是会倒吸口气,走下去.

那怕是多么的艰难,你还是认定它是属于你的.

女人,外表看起来像水做的,

脆弱的像朵花,一旦把它摘下,就只能等着枯萎.

所以,每个男人都以拥有一朵永不枯萎的花为傲.

美丽的花带刺,拥有它,是危险的.

美丽的女人也一样,

无时无刻都带着武器.

我的爱.

N年没blog le

2011-03-13T21:52:00.008+08:00

昨天跟baby去打golf.

现在全身酸痛...

选了这张照片是因为它跟我一样又矮又胖.

可是很可爱.

我深深的爱上了我baby的背影!

他打球是的背影和线条

超帅的!!!

特别是球杆打到球时的声音,

好响亮!

可惜没有空拍到...

不过,我拍到了更可爱的

N 年blog le

2011-03-13T21:52:00.000+08:00

加油加油！

2011-01-18T11:08:00.001+08:00

昨天晚上，老妈回来时给了我一把车锁匙。
明天一定要成功！

5/12/2010

2010-12-05T22:40:00.001+08:00

Went to watch Narnia with baby today. Was so toot! We were both wearing our specs and we bought tickets for 3d, so throughout the movie the specs kept slipping down. Partly because we didn't have sharp noses and we were 四眼田鸡s. So we resorted to putting our index fingers on our nose bridge to support it.
Yeah that's my bimbotic moment. It's been some time since this relapse....
Nonetheless it was enjoyable to spend the day with my old man:)
I like the surprise he prepared for me! He's going away for 6 days field camp and he wrote 5 letters for me to read nightly cause he won't be able to call me. Sooooo SWEET! No wonder he deserves my love.

my love for you

2010-11-30T12:52:00.003+08:00

在一起4个月了. 终于找到了他给我的感觉.
每次,他不在的时候,我想他时,
总是这个画面.
他在我身后看着我笑,我在他的前面开心的跑.
他给我的安全感,
像父母那样的不离不弃.

所以,我可以自由的做我想做的,
我知道他会支持我.
就像我确定自己永远不想离开他.

Age is catching up with me.

2010-10-31T11:34:00.001+08:00

I hate my enlarging pores.
I hate my expanding waistline.
I hate my short of breath feel when it's only been 20 mins into my run.
I hate my eye bags.
I lost my adventurous nature.
I think twice about a comment.
I want to go back to 18.

When
I had my slim waist.
I had lesser visible pores.
I wouldn't hesitate to try anything new.
I am direct.

感动

2010-10-21T02:26:00.001+08:00

今天要和我家老头去找爸妈的时候，
他说了一句话让我特别感动。
“很久没买东西给你爸妈了，要带点吃的去吗？”

这就是所谓的爱屋及乌。

17/10/2010

2010-10-17T23:29:00.007+08:00

我的生活怎么就这么的规律.
连和奶茶都是一个口味的.
peisin 这女人都爬到我头上说我boring le...
为了证明我是有life 的.
请看下面:我们家老头今天开车来,所以跟他撒娇说要去海边. 所以就去了!帮我娘庆祝生日.

我家的黑色会老大!

最近大家都不知道怎么了, 好像都超级忙,
还是我朋友少.
少的可怜.
想找些人去bbq 竟然都找不到.
看来我要多出去晃晃了.

let's talk about sth else.
I think it's been quite some time since I last shared my bimbo-tic moments.
Here's one:
Was practicing with my dad's car yesterday cause he came home early and bf was around.
so I got the keys from my dad and drag my old man to the car park.
All was good....
I reversed to get out of the parking lot,
did a left turn and went up the slope.
Yea... not that hard.
Feeling proud of myself I tried to drive all the way to the top level of the car park.
Climbed another level and
I got stuck.
My car was in such an awkward position slanted at 45 degrees to the slope,
I can't drive any further and it kept sliding...
so old man pulled hand brake.
I kept stepping on the brake...
and he kept saying accelerate accelerate!
haha
I can't do anything but laugh
so stupid....

So in the end after he made sure that the car wasn't sliding backwards.
He got out and took over the wheels.
Just less than a min and we're at the top.
So man!

放风筝了!

2010-09-26T21:46:00.002+08:00

Had a super nice weekend...
and it's gone so fast.
Dear surprised me once again! hee hee
feels nice when there's someone who actually bothers to
crack his brain and came up with surprises for me!

Been wanting to go kite flying for quite some time...
and someone finally fulfilled my wish!!!

So we went kite flying today.... and it wasn't exactly a failure,
only that we couldn't get the kite in the air for more than 30s.
haha there is no wind at all!
But still it was enjoyable!
:)

love ya

2010-09-11T13:07:00.004+08:00

昨天，我就是和这个偶尔幼稚，不时黑脸，但却超及疼我的俊爷度过我的22岁生日的！
昨天真的被他搞得哭笑不得的。边烫衣服时就在想，
这老头怎么这样，人家生日就不能早点到吗？
11.30才打给我说要来我家，又不是不知道我们是长距离恋爱叻，这么一来要1点才会到腌家阿。
一边烫就一边生闷气。
然后叻，烫完衣服从我妈房间出来就看到他一脸神气的赖在我床上。
拽什么拽吗。。。
不就是一个惊喜。。。
哈哈但是心里还是在暗爽！

问他是不是开车来还死不承认，看我化妆时即然还说我是骗子。
可是看到我面色不对时，又会默默的加上一句
“你不化就美了阿。。。”
然后自己就去拿生日礼物了，随意的放在我旁边后，还假装潇洒的又跑到我床上躺。
有时还真怀疑他是软骨的。

以为，他买了我喜欢的river island 的包包给我。
以下这个。
他却买了一个grey的包包，然后即然还说，“我打给你的时候你说beige ah...”
明明是beige买成grey...
老头就是老头，不过心里还是开心的，那个包包就别提了，感觉上qiuhui会比较喜欢。
我还没把这事放心上，换一换就好了，没想到他自己在那儿郁闷起来。
原来他很在乎我的感觉，原来他很想要看到我拿到包包时那种开心的表情！

所以，为了哄他开心，决定请他吃午餐！
他又自己拉我去冰箱说要变魔术给我看，叫我打开冰箱。
所以我打开了。里面什么特别的都没有，
找来找去都没看到什么。
他受不了就跟我说他做了tiramisu。

它就长这个样，而且被放在一个很不起眼的NTUC袋子里。
我们家冰箱又这么乱，找不到也不奇怪。
虽然找了很久，但是看到它时，却有一种暖暖的感动。
俊爷尽然会为我做蛋糕 <3
不过代价是要帮他挖耳朵，哈哈哈看他开心样子，
嘴里还不时阿。阿。好爽，不知道的人还以为我们在干嘛叻。

吃完晚餐后，他看时间还早就带我去Mt Faber。在这住了14年了都没去过。
当他把车子开上的时，
真的好美。。。
干好我坐在左边，所以往外一看就是一览无遗的夜景。
越爬越高就看的越多。

下山的时候，往外看的时候，有点不舍。
他开到山底，
转左是出口，转右是上山的路。
他选了右边，让我再看一次风景。

难怪我那么的爱他。
因为他不只听到了我的话，
我没说的他也懂。

云朵

2010-09-09T00:50:00.004+08:00

那天在学校里的时候，抬头看到了这朵云。
想起了小时候画的云朵，非常相似。
就拿起了手机把它拍下，出来的结果还不错，蛮满意的。

小时候好像越来越远了。。。
记得，曾经跟徐姝和大姐在那说着以后，
没想到，我们现在就已经活在那时的“以后”了。

好多东西似乎没做到，好多不想做的却也都做了。
15 或16岁时编织的梦，现在成型了吗？
18 岁时想牵的那双手，牵到了吗？
这一路走来的遗憾
或快乐

21岁末的我
庆幸有梦想的勇气
我心中的那朵云，等着我去彩绘！

You and me

2010-08-02T23:56:00.001+08:00

这朵花在心中开了。
它生长了第四天了。
为它撒下种子的人，每天都细心灌溉着。

他将它捧在手里，呵护着，似乎任何的风吹草动都会打扰到它的成长。

我第一次看到，感受到那个人的真诚。
我只好和他一起呵护着。
让这朵花开满心扉。

Wedding

2010-07-31T20:05:00.004+08:00

Camwhore while waiting for her husband, my brother in law, to get ready.
Yea that's him at the back with my pink iphone

Them,
After the solemnization.

30/07/2010
A day that marked a brand new beginning.

26/07/2010

2010-07-26T21:37:00.001+08:00

腼腆的笑容。
羞涩的语气。
细心的关怀。

好像很遥远。
有好像就在身边。

2010-07-25T01:13:00.002+08:00

一个花苞开不出两种颜色的花。
一朵玫瑰不能同时被两人握在手里。
这样会受伤。

要在还没将它摘下时就认定它是否只属于你。

你不属于我。

Let it rain.

2010-07-20T17:19:00.002+08:00

有很多话你想讲。
你张开口却是无声的呐喊。
你说不出你内心的感想。
或许不可以，
或许不想让人看穿你内心深处的寂寞，无助。

你拥抱着自己，维护着那一点仅有的温暖。
你经常开玩笑，带着灿烂的笑容，
因为你希望能找回那失去的快乐。

你知道那怀抱是你渴望的。
但是你也知道，
是你让事情演发成现在的局面。

两年了，
在多的亏欠，
在多的不舍，
也是时候放手了。

你的泪水，
我看了。
似乎流在我脸上。

我和你
何尝不是一样的？

不要跟自己说放不下。
无助的心灵打不败寂寞的袭击。

希望
明天的你会和我一样，
放弃，不要努力去忘记那个人。
要勇敢的接受那是你的一部份，
但你的人生还有很长的路。
所以你要带着他的记忆，
让自己勇敢的
往前跑！

PS：送给昨晚那个我抱着的你，希望下一次你的泪水是因为快乐而流。
煜希

2010-07-14T22:38:00.005+08:00

我想念那蓝蓝的天。我想念那青青的海。
我想念那无忧无虑的自由。
我也怀念带着有色眼镜看人的日子。

被偷拍的日子。

Photos

2010-06-24T01:38:00.005+08:00

Was trying out curls that day... it sucks.
I'm going to Phuket to get myself a new hairstyle!

went to Kuishin Bo with qiu hui. It's a luxury considering that one meal cost one day of my pay.
But it's worth it cause they have free flow of snow crab!!

This is only a fraction of what we ate. Trust me.

Surprise!!!!
I freak out when my sheer secret mud mask dries...
I can count my pores la.
I think it's just their way of advertising their products.
First the shock that you get is enough to convince you the effectiveness of their product.
That's how skin care products works, they always start with showing you your biggest flaw.
But I think it's not gonna work for me...
I'm allergic to it.
And I spent $69 on it.

23/06/2010

2010-06-23T16:44:00.002+08:00

分不清，雨下在心里还是在窗外。

有一个人这样说过我,
‘你每天都笑啊！’

我怕跟他说，拿下笑脸后的我，你恐怕认不得。

以前我总会把伤心挂在脸上，
可能是渴望得到朋友的安慰或关怀吧。
但是，在满的井也有干涸的一天。
在多的关怀，长时间来，又有用尽的一天。

现在我
把伤心放在心里。
想象着它是时间送的礼物。
在不同的心境下，打开它，
会有不同的滋味。

这份礼物，不只是来怀念。
就像伤心，不只是一种心情。
它还包含了许多的反思。
上天之所以给予人类这种情感是为了让我们在痛失后，
时过境迁，
打开礼物时能够领悟出当时是的因果。

不为了追究。。。

懂得爱了人，把对方看得比自己重，只会为对方付出。无怨无悔。
不懂得爱的人，失去爱后，只会问对错，不明白爱从来不包含任何地对错。

爱只有值得或不值得。

20/06/2010

2010-06-20T01:56:00.003+08:00

慢慢。慢慢的沉睡。
我回到了旧时的滋味。

打开那熟悉的门，老奶奶捧着的饭，
心中的思念，
一碗浓浓的亲情味。

穿过长长，透着微微的夕阳的走廊，
小时的调皮，长辈的慈悲。

走廊的尽头，叔伯们喝着茶，抽着烟，
看着夕阳，聊着过往，悠哉闲栽，
仿佛只出现在山水画里的陶醉。

渐渐的梦醒，不情愿的割舍，
我疯狂的以照片留念，
却装不满，
心中的思念。

2010-06-12T10:19:00.002+08:00

走过橱窗，看着模特儿身上的衣服。
想想，我的肩膀太宽，不能穿。

她走过，看着那条裙子。
想想，她的屁股太大，不能穿。

她渴望穿上我能穿的裙子，
我渴望穿上她能穿的上衣。

得不到的总是最美。
别人的遗憾不是遗憾。
自己的遗憾总是最难释怀。

习惯放大自己的缺点，
渐渐变得自卑，
所以躲在‘不在乎’的庇护下。

真正的你，
几时才肯面对真实的你。

停止停滞。

2010-05-29T19:36:00.006+08:00

她的四周黑暗无比，安静的只剩自己的呼吸声。
在这里徘徊了很久，就的连自己都忘记了。
一个人的寂寂，使她怀念起风的自由，阳光的温暖。
这里什么都没有。
这里根本什么都不该有。

传说，在心灵地域里，你唯一能看到的是你心中的枷锁的始作俑者。

她在空寂中等待着。
风不动，心也静止。

她在等，等着那个始作俑者的到来。她甚至不懂自己为何不能在天堂。

直到。这天。

她看到了他。
在这心灵地域中，他是她第一个看得见的人。
偶尔，她听到一些声响，但却不曾看过任何人。
但眼前的他，却在她的脑海里烙下了印。
但显然，他已经忘记了她。

她似乎也是他唯一看到的人。
他问她这里是哪里？
她回答不了。
他问她，我认识你吗?
‘是这样的,刚过世的人,往往还处在恍惚的状态。’她心里想着。。。

她照顾着他，像以前一样。
她教他如何在这荒凉黑暗的地域生存，
她教他如何排遣一个人的寂寞。

她怀念起以前照顾他的情景，好像在从新翻起那一页。

有一天，他和她说他看到了一个人，至此，她了解到他要离开了。

莫一天，他回过头，望着她，说：你很特别，我以前认识你吗？
我好像知道你是谁，但我却想不起来。我想跟你说。。

他的话，定格在那，许久后，她才回过神来。她原来在等着
一个不曾把她放在心上的人。
他去解开另一个枷锁，她则等着另一个‘因’来完整她内心的谜团。

为了少一个‘因’，我决定了。
2010 年5 月29日
是我最后想起你的日子。
一起走过回家的路。
错了，忘了他吧。

25/05/10

2010-05-25T15:25:00.004+08:00

Two more days to the release of my finals results.
I hope I can at least raise my GPA to 4.2.
In this case I can take stats 305!
And meet my favourite professor RINGO.

Yesterday was my super duper suay day at work at MOM.
Got reprimanded by this anti government respondents who insist that his daughter is
not working cause the part time pay that his daughter earned was only enough for her own shopping need. So I had to endured 10 mins of scolding and personal attacks.
He was angry because I am highly educated and working for governmental agency.
WTF

So what if you don't have and are not aware of the Workfare Income Supplement Scheme, and you did not go through the selection for subsidies for low income families.
What we did are essential for the government to know the overall economic status of families.
Oh please, I know you have heavy burden and you desperately needed help because your daughter is rebellious, you wife has health problems but you can't expect people to all switch their attention to you and only you.
Don't lament on your life, there are people worse than you.
Out there in the sea, on an island, there are people who do not even have governments to care for them, let alone complaining that the government is not doing enough.
For they do not even have a citizenship in any country.

Haha, I don't know if i should be glad that I am holding this job that pays a thousand plus a month and it doesn't require me to do much other than conducting surveys.
Job is relatively slack, I've resort to face book, YouTube, blogging and online shopping to kill time.
But I do get hectic hours too. Like the day before yesterday, 10 mins to lunch time, I receive a call enquiring on the connection error for the survey through Internet, I then have to conduct the survey over the phone with him.
Trust me surveying 10 household members is not easy when you see all your colleagues going for lunch...
But they are very kind, the bought my favourite prawn noodles for me, and the respondent was very understanding too, maybe he realised too that it is uncommon to find a household of 10 staying in a 5 room flat.

Was watching Iron man last night on my IPhone,
and felt an instant enlightenment when I heard "Pepper Potts".

It brought back memories of the past, the past which I am unwilling to let go off.
The past, when I was "Pepper Potts" to my Iron man.

童话不够美好

2010-05-23T09:34:00.006+08:00

有时候在想，难道一定就真的不能够同时拥有一个自己爱的人，
而且那个人又是那么的体贴，宽容的。

日常生活中的点点滴滴，我们会不会因为太投入在扮演爱人的角色，而忽略了
其实我们都是普通人。

每个人都希望活在童话世界里，但是童话不够美好。

结婚，是把两个自己认为彼此相爱的放在一起。
成果就要靠彼此的交流。
但是，往往步入婚姻的人，被爱冲昏了头。
当下的爱，真的能够empower you with the courage to be with you partner in times of wealth and poverty?

结婚宣言写的是如此的动人美丽，是那向往的天堂。
以前，听过这样的话：一个人到了天坛和地域的交界，他问那一边是天坛，那边是地域？
在那里的另一个人叫他往左看，他看到了荒凉的沙漠，那里的人无力的瘫扒在滚烫的沙上，痛苦不堪，
而在他的右边，那里个个都是俊男美女，在灯光璀璨的酒廊里喝酒聊天。他想也不想就往右边奔去。殊不知，那就是地狱。

爱情，会不会就是他在交界边遇到的人？给了你错的印象，幻觉，让你义无反顾的一头栽进去。但你回头时，那道门早已深锁。

我们是否选择停滞在爱与不爱，恨与不恨，取决于瞬间。

愿意想通的心灵，可在瞬间得到解脱。

Run Baby

2010-05-20T21:18:00.002+08:00

爱情,天性是甜的, 时限是永恒的, 性质是自私的.

我无法不爱你.

我也无法义无反顾不求回报的爱你.

游乐场, 星空,你的手,我们的夜.

一场回忆.

有没有可能这回忆仍是进行试?

work

2010-05-16T22:04:00.007+08:00

My favourite washroom at Great World City.

With cheryl at work. It's Sunday when i took this photo, I've no idea why did i wear so formal. And now i have no formal wear for Monday.

To all my beloved friends:
TADAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
He is my new eye candy. PS: eye candy is eye candy only, no special meaning.
He's super adorable and this picture doesn't do hi justice, partly because I'm a lousy photographer and this is a 偷拍照.....

There's more, but I'm keeping them to myself hahahahah.

My dear bro, Wuzhong!
So sorry I've forgotten your birthday, but I do feel that I've something undone yesterday........
so subconsciously I remember it. It's etched in my heart but I don't know what it is. It's like it's on my mind all the time and so important that I've spent so much effort in remember the day but not the content! hahahahahahahahah
sorry la.

Happy BELATED Birthday
ZHU WUZHONG!!!!

2010-05-14T00:35:00.002+08:00

你懂得一个人被留下的感觉吗？

明明是一对，却不再拥有你的任何消息。
没有资格再对你好。
最大的勇气，仅是看着你发过的短信。

遇到关于你的事，
我始终带着稚气的态度。
就像我们那时的相处。

好像，莫一个我，那个我和你一同拥有的我，
会因为你的消息而被唤醒。
露出专属你的笑容。

因为分开，我们回到了陌生人的位置，
但是感情是不是也能像拆开过的礼物，
在从新抱回？

这些日子以来，
我始终一个人。

new song from jay: 烟花易冷

2010-05-07T23:12:00.001+08:00

繁華聲遁入空門折煞了世人
夢偏冷輾轉一生情債又幾本
如你默認生死枯等
枯等一圈又一圈的年輪
浮圖塔斷了幾層斷了誰的魂
痛直奔一盞殘燈傾塌的山門
容我再等歷史轉身
等酒香醇等你彈一曲古箏
雨紛紛舊故裡草木深
我聽聞你始終一個人
斑駁的城門盤踞著老樹根
石板上回蕩的是再等
雨紛紛舊故裡草木深
我聽聞你仍守著孤城
城郊牧笛聲落在那座野村
緣份落地生根是我們
聽青春迎來笑聲羨煞許多人
那史冊溫柔不肯下筆都太很
煙花易冷人事易分
而你在問我是否還認真
千年後累世情深還有誰在等
而青史豈能不真魏書洛陽城
如你在跟前世過門
跟著紅塵跟隨我浪跡一生
雨紛紛舊故裡草木深
我聽聞你始終一個人
斑駁的城門盤踞著老樹根
石板上回蕩的是再等
雨紛紛舊故裡草木深
我聽聞你仍守著孤城
城郊牧笛聲落在那座野村
緣份落地生根是我們
雨紛紛舊故裡草木深
我聽聞你始終一個人
斑駁的城門盤踞著老樹根
石板上回蕩的是再等
雨紛紛雨紛紛舊故裡草木深
我聽聞我聽聞你仍守著孤城
城郊牧笛聲落在那座野村
緣份落地生根是我們
緣份落地生根是我們
伽藍寺聽雨聲盼永恆

17/04/10

2010-04-17T23:04:00.004+08:00

如果我去台湾。。。
我就一定要去阳明山的屋顶上, The top。
那里的夜景实在太美了！！！！
它坐落阳明山山顶，
可以远眺大台北市区。
而且，就想赖着你就是在这里取景的。。。

是求婚的最佳地点，
可惜可惜。。。
我不住在台湾。

14.04.10

2010-04-14T23:52:00.004+08:00

是不是每个人都应该再给真爱多一次机会？

最近在狂追《就想赖着你》，听到了ＳＨＥ所唱的片尾曲《只为爱上你》。
里面就有这么一句：

你的身边要不是比天边还遥远，勇气怎么出现。
当你终于走到我的面前　完整所有的画面　
就算酸甜苦辣尝过一遍
只剩喜悦。

每个人走向真爱的路都不一样，但是却都得经过波折。
真爱的遥远，才使得它可贵。
而真爱之所以遥远是因为在路途中，
会有许多丧失希望的寻找真爱的权利的迷途人
带这摧毁的心态来误导，你。

是否带这勇气就能走向它的身边？
我曾经向左转，也向右转，
但都走不到它的身边。

是不是，或许我闭上眼，跟随我的心灵，
让我带领我就能走到呢？

那有如果我走到了，但是真爱却没有歌词里想象的甜，
我是否会后悔不堕落到迷途人的地步，
放肆的挥霍青春？

有谁能确保真爱的滋味
就是我们想像中的甜？

13/04/10

2010-04-13T23:47:00.003+08:00

GIRLS OUT THERE BEWARE!!!!
I am summarizing one of the researched article for my stupid psychology stuff. AND
this is the interesting finding. WANTING and LIKING can be going in opposite directions.
What do i mean by that? In layman term, your bf may want you and not like you. ESPECIALLY if you have rejected him sometime when he was wooing you. There is a high likelihood that he will trade you for something else. SO there is a disadvantage of playing hard to get. hahahahahah
I am so glad that i am single.
Realised that i have not been uploading any photos at all....

Last min effort for my presentation at HSS rooftop garden.
Gone wild after the presentation.Playing with evan's mac book!

12/04/10

2010-04-12T23:02:00.002+08:00

暧昧这种东西,让人很讨厌。
烦死了。

考试更加懊恼, 怎么读都感觉没有任何的了解。

还有十天，就考试了。可是我感觉即使在给我100 天，我也不可能把它们读完。

今天进去professor的office，看到了他很可爱的女儿！！！！！！！
好开心哦。

原来，一个人真的可以拥有一切！看到他，就认为一切都是有希望的。

现在了解到了一些早该体会的东西，不论是爱情，友情或亲情

从来没有单方面的付出。

累了，对于那些无所谓的人，我不想多理。

有人一直在问我，为什么不要在尝试一下幸福的滋味。
其实，找不到知己，在甜蜜的幸福总有一天也会变的淡而无味。
以前，总是单纯的以为有感觉就好了，其实不然。
有很多琐碎的东西在消磨着感觉，诺不能做到相知，就会产生猜疑，误会。
最后什么感觉都没了。

所以做不了情人往往连朋友也没的做。

Oh my god! Why the hell am I writing these stupid emotional stuff again.
I'm suppose to be enjoying my carefree single life!( which I have been......)
But somehow single life gets irritating when everyone thinks that you should be getting attach.

lalalala why should I get attach? And divert half of my attention to a guy who's not going to spend the same half on me.

Two is enough( sounds like the "stop at two" birth policy. hahaha)

I'm kind of PISSED, and the first thing that I'm pissed with is I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE HELL DO I FIND NOT RIGHT WITH MY LIFE.

I have what everyone else wants. I have what 80% of my cohort don't. I'm a freaking undergrad, and that doesn't change anything about me......

I still don't know what I want. OR subconsciously I know but i just refuse to admit.

Ok I guess that's enough procrastination.....

Gonna go back to my psych.
Piaget, Erickson here i come....

2/04/10

2010-04-02T15:11:00.002+08:00

Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can't stand CONFUCIUS anymore....
I've been at it for the past 4 hours and I could only come up with one point
which only makes up 800 out of the 4000 word limit.

What else is there to write about?
Why is it restricted to "仁"only.......
when that old man had came up with so many stuff...

My butt hurts now from sitting.....

22/03/10

2010-03-23T23:21:00.003+08:00

有些幸福是注定的。
有些快乐是来自简单的成就。

昨晚梦见了这样的一句话，
“她会这么快找到他，是因为他们有三世姻缘。”
姻缘天注定。
强求也于事无补，所以何必担心现在的他是不是那个他？
爱要有一份豁出去的劲。

和现在的他吵吵架，打打冷战就觉的可能将来的他不会是现在的他，
那你就不会是他未来的她。

要记住，

在怎么倒霉的生活里，总是能找到幸福的点滴。

那天，在倾盆大雨中，我找到了那个好心帮我遮雨的陌生人。
那天和那天。。。。

其实每一天都有值得珍惜的事或人。

16/03/10

2010-03-17T01:36:00.002+08:00

要快乐就要从生活中琐碎的事中去寻找。
今天的快乐来至于这些：

1. 一大早就看到我最喜欢的professor，他就跟这我走到lt。开心
2. 帮一位外籍学生找到他的文件。助人为快乐之本，所一我快乐。
3.看到了学妹，而且还聊了起来。即使是寒暄而已，却也是种关怀。
4. 我终于把我的resume写出来了。

真的很琐碎的事，但是去回顾这些小事是却是开心的。

25/02/2010

2010-02-25T22:21:00.004+08:00

Everyone, let's celebrate!!!!!!!!

Because Prof Ringo is the newly crowned favourite professor of HSS

04-02-2010

2010-02-04T22:56:00.003+08:00

你轻轻的吹，我随风摇摆。
你微微的笑，我不自觉的扬起嘴角。
你说的，我全记在脑海。

我们的一切，那么的自然。

Shoes

2010-01-31T00:54:00.004+08:00

My latest collection from Mitju.
Super cute!
I'm totally in love with the pink flower.

PS: hint hint!!
I'm into shoes, whoever wants to get me presents.....
You know.

I don't know why I'm even blogging when I'm not done with my stats and psychology stuff.
But I just can't wait to share this piece of news...
I'm in love with my professor!!
I think I just adore guys who are more knowledgeably than I am.
A quote from qiuhui "everyone out there is more knowledgeable than i am".
Very true...haha then why am i still single.
Cause the ones that I like don't like me and the ones that like me I don't like.

20-01-2010

2010-01-20T20:48:00.003+08:00

看到了新闻，今天是obama 出任美国总统的一周年纪念。

原来已经过了一年了。

一年来的自由，开始习惯了。
这一年里发生的事情，无不是让人失落，感伤的。
有些友情，便的尴尬。
有些爱情，便的廉价。
但是，有些亲情，变得可贵。

曾觉得自己是不幸得，
怎么所有的事都和我有关。
过境迁后，
觉得我比同龄的坚强。

今天2010年1月20号，
是我可以勇敢，又自信的说，
我走过了，远离了，
我们的那一段。

SUAY.................

2010-01-17T23:13:00.002+08:00

It's the only piece left in my house,
I was eager to get it out and i torn it into
HALVES....

Now i probably have to dress super mature,
go queue at the bank and tell them that my child did this.
No one will ever believe that a 21 year old can ever do something
THIS STUPID.

25/12/09

2009-12-25T10:59:00.007+08:00

从前有一个男孩。
他在头上放了一个箱子。
每当他有任何不开心或开心的事，
他都将它们一一记载然后放入箱子里。
当箱子快满了，他就会拿出所有不开心的字条。
留下开心的。
但是有一天，他发生了一场意外，
当他醒来时，箱子里是空的。
他慌了。
于是他在漫漫人海中找寻着他那消失的记忆。
他走过他常走的道路，他翻越他曾爬过的山，他翻遍了他住过的屋子。
但是他找不到任何一张。
他失落的走在公园中，
这时，他的面前出现了一个长头发的女孩。
她长长的头发在风中飘逸，
她拉着小提琴，陶醉在那美妙的音乐里。
他问那女生有美有看到任何字条。
就这样，他们俩个一起踏上可寻找旧记忆的旅途。
日子久了，男孩的箱子有满起来了。
他不再寻找着旧记忆。。。

28/11/09

2009-11-28T20:59:00.002+08:00

4 more days before I fly off.
3more days to my last paper.

That means another 3 more days to go,
before i can officially stop procrastinating.
It has been 1 semester already
and i am still suffering from maladaptive.
Still can't quite get used to how uni works.
I totally lack self discipline and motivation.
Manly told me "mugger" is a mean term that
people with low self discipline came up with to
DISCRIMINATE those,
when they are just JEALOUS.
I can't help but agree with her.
I am so jealous of them.
I want to be able to sit there with my books for at least
an hour and take in whatever crap they're trying to tell me.
But I can't.
MY da yi ma is killing me and I can't even sit down for long.
Can't seat does not equate to standing.
Whatever I do, my cramps is here with me.

Was trying to watch 500 days of summer just now,
but I can't bear to continue with the show.
Apart from it being boring, it shows a harsh reality.
Wonder if it's in everyone to just get into a relationship and
TRY to work things out?
Why not the other way round?
We should first try to work things out and see if we are compatible,
before we sink into love.
Even after 2 failed relationships, I still can't master that.
I guess feelings, too me, is the key issue.
So forget it, it's just crap.

Read this from a book that I'm currently reading:
It's crazy to love someone who hurt you,
it's even more crazy to think someone who hurts you loves you.

A fact that I never manage to realize when i was with him.
Now I do.

Met my sister's boyfriend a couple of days ago.
He's so totally different from my ex.
He's matured, caring, sensible and
DEFINITELY a gentleman.
He doesn't have a frivolous past,
I'm so glad that he's with my sister.
She's in good hands.
It's amazing when i realize that when I am not in a relationship,
I see things so much clearer.
It's just one dinner, short 45 minutes conversation,
and maybe some observation on and off while we shopped,
and I am able to "know" him.
That labels me as a total failure, cause I've dated for about 10 month
and I didn't know who I was dating.

17/11/09

2009-11-17T19:26:00.002+08:00

突然觉得爱情比友情好.
爱情淡了还可以做回朋友,
但是友情反而脆弱的很.
一有什么波折,就只能成为陌生人,
也无法跟涉及的人像以往那样相处.
总有些话题避开不谈,
有些人避开不提.
倒底谁说友情是长久的?

有时友情比爱情更虚伪...
比爱情更难释怀.

15/11/09

2009-11-15T23:34:00.003+08:00

I'm going to get 2 fat U in my transcript.

一到了考试其间就诸事不顺.
和伟坤想看 2012,
找了2 间戏院都看不成.
人滖,走在路上都能中炮.
烦死了.

There's 4 more days left to my first paper
and I have not even covered more than 1/4 of my first paper.
Econ..... seems easy but I've never taken any uni exam before
and I am too lazy to look through the past year papers.

So gonna get U for my physics even though it's an S/U
subject, I don't even have the option to s/u
it when i feel that I can't do well.

Hp101 is gone case, just gotten my book back from my cousin.
There's like 1 whole book to cover, the exam is on 20th Nov.

Hp102, wonder what happens when my course mates are all doing Hp200s
When I'm still stuck at trying to figure out why F test not T test.
Damn it. Life sucks.

01/11/09

2009-11-01T20:24:00.008+08:00

One reason why I love NTU
I realized that I should replenish my shoe collection. I don't even wear like half of those in the picture.
First time i reveal my bro... i look fat and now i believed that i put on 3 kg.
Finally a day of rest for my parents. Went to new york new york !
Their meat platter.
And their bloody eye balls.

20/10/09

2009-10-21T00:25:00.003+08:00

I was going to comment something about one of my guy friend.
Intending to let him into the ugly side of love.

But I guess I shouldn't be so pessimistic,
I've to outshine Shaun in terms of optimism!
So I shall just pray hard that his promise will one day come true.
And when it does,
I'll be able to find the strength to believe in miracle again....

waiting for the simple love that is everlasting.

18/10/09

2009-10-18T23:39:00.002+08:00

我好讨厌我身边的那些人。
你明明已经放弃爱我，关心我的机会。
你先放手的，那么就请你恨心一点的离开。
不要不时地回过头来看我。

你想看到什么？
我伤心的哭泣？
我怨恨的诅咒你？
我无助的渴望一切都能会到原来那样？

你错了，你说要离开的那一刻。
你已失去了这权力。
你根本没资格来关心我。
你知不知道？
每次当我那么靠近将你收在回忆里，
你却又突然的发来一则简讯，或MSN，
是多么的折腾吗？

如果爱不起，你就要学会放的下。
不要让我陷在爱与不爱，放与不放的边缘。
每次都要因为你的关心，慰问，
而重复着失去你的痛。
为什么这么的自私？
为什么明知道会伤害我，还要去做？
为什么伤害后，不能就走开，却要在我身边徘徊。
时不时提醒我。。。
我还没把你放下。

15/10/09

2009-10-15T21:13:00.003+08:00

心情很好的一天
不知道为什么。。。
刚刚做了FB 的一个测试，
它说我很在意最近说的一个谎话。
被它说中了。。。
可是那又怎样，
根他撒谎根本就不必在乎。

不过今天还是美好的一天，
虽然说早上7点半就起身了。
蛮累的，但是这一天过得很充实。
想到能看到想看到的东西就开心。

最近有一种怪怪的感觉。。。
有些东西再怎么去把握
最终还是敌不过时间。。。

昨天，我在一次跑去捐血，
根第一次相比，没那么恐怖。
不过还是好疼。。。。
看着那根ＹＡＫＵＬＴＳＴＲＡＷ插进我的血管。
恶心。

记得第一次是跟他一起。
我硬拉他陪我去。。。
那时候，跟他聊着聊着，护士就弄好了。
这次只能回想起那时，看着身边的朋友。

人为什么要回忆过去？
应为可望有所改变。
为何明知道童话故事不会在现实出现，
却仍然在等待？
因为奇迹曾经出现过。

12/10/09

2009-10-12T02:07:00.002+08:00

经过了这么久，
我以为我把你给忘了。
但你总在我将记忆尘封的那一刻，
又霎那间的出现在我的生命里。
你应该不闻不问，
你应该冷酷无情。
但你却总在我心海平复时，又再次泛起涟漪。

时时刻刻都想把你从我的心底深处除去，
但是，放在心上的东西不是说忘就忘。

很想说爱你是幸福的，可现在却只能装做不在乎。
我爱你那么多，心才拿么痛，每次入睡后都作了同样的梦。

想念你的话，我不能说。
说了，我就回不去了，
我就会永远活在爱你的回忆里。。。
我不想你。

或许在你的眼里，不会在有我的微笑，我的泪水。
但我拥有了我们那珍贵的回忆。
我有你拿也拿不走的久回忆，我可以一个人安静的忘记你。

你只会成为陌生人

2009-10-09T00:17:00.005+08:00

原来男人真的无所谓。
今天，我和一位男人聊起了爱情这东西。
大家聊开后，我却发觉好男人真的稀有。
他曾经有过一个非常“亲密”的女友，
女方对他关爱有加，无微不至。
但他却从未爱过她。
她以为他爱她。
她以为他会为她而改变。
然而，他跟她在一起只是为了让自己看上去
有价值，有人要。
我问他，他是否有觉得对不起她。
他却说已经把她给忘了。
即使现在碰面，她也只是一个陌生人。

我不原意一竹竿打翻整船人，也不是针对跟我聊天的人。
只是认为，男人凭什么可以这么的无视一个女人的真心。
怎么可以自私到这种程度？
完完全全的利用完就丢！

我想我只能以感同身受，来安慰这个女人。
原来这社会真的险恶。
每个人都带着面具示人，
想找个真心爱自己的人
有可能吗？

那个为你戴上戒指，许下承诺的人，
会一辈子遵守吗？

Rock on and rot on

2009-10-05T01:13:00.003+08:00

It's the end of the recess week.
I've done nothing.
Test on Tuesday, 5 wordy chapters not touched.
My tutorials hidden in some file of mine.
My past is haunting me....

I thought I would enjoy this holiday, in the end,
when my cousin asked me what have I done.
"fishing" is my only answer. WTH
It's a total of 9 days and only 2 days were well spent.

I have about....
forget it I was trying to count the number of hours I have left till Tuesday 2.30pm.
And I realize I can't count.
My reticular formation is failing me again.

Enjoying life!

2009-09-29T21:29:00.007+08:00

The two of us finished these in 1 hour!
cause we were so damn pissed that after queuing at the embassy
under the hot sun and didn't get pass the security post!

okay, I've been doing nothing these days.
Except relaxing at the South China Sea
and gorging myself with ice cream buffet!

The pictures for the fishing trip will come later,
cause i need to mug for my HP101.

郁闷的一天

2009-09-23T21:21:00.003+08:00

现在有种偾事的感觉。
09年是不顺的一年。

特别的感触。
讨厌那些在我低落时拉我一把的人。
他们（不止是男的）总在拉我一把后
再把我推倒。
双重打击。

因该是忧郁症的症状吧，
好像被抛弃了。
所谓的好朋友，更本没把我放在心上。

所有的付出似乎得不到认同和回报。
所谓的友情爱情都那么的虚无，
怎样都抓不住。

在爱情这方面，我摔了两次。
我相信命运，但它一次又一次的摧毁我对它的信念。
所有的道理我都懂，但我找不到一个来维护它。
如果不能在一起，为什么当初又让我们相识相爱？
兜兜转转，真的很累。
努力的去认识一个人，最后又努力的去忘记。
何苦？
假如我说我到现在还忘不了你们眼中的混蛋，
你们又会怎样看我？

友情也是一样的脆弱。
不知道从什么时候起，我们提不起勇气去说实话。
不知道从什么时候起，我们既然可以跟不喜欢的人称兄道弟。
不知道从什么时候起，朋友已经变得不重要了。

如果你读到这，又觉得我在EMO那你只好忍受，
因为这一年真的很不顺。
我是个重感情的人，但却总被感情伤害。
其实就是放不下。
其实就败在心肠软。
其实讨厌自己胜过任何人。

如果有一天我消失了，谁会发现呢？

今天在看《武侠梁祝》后，眼泪又不知不觉得滴下。
单纯真诚的爱好难早。。。

17-09-09

2009-09-17T21:41:00.003+08:00

Got quite pissed while queueing for KFC just now.
It's the peak hours,
so usually I'm ok with waiting.
But it gets real irritating when you thought
that you're like the number tenth in the queue,
and when it's finally your turn next,
you realised that the person directly in front of you
is buying for 6 person!

You'll lose all your patience instantly.
I swear. Not totally their fault though.
Cause i do help my friends queue at times too,
but not 6....
It is irritating.
You're hungry, the food's right in front but you can't reach.
You're finally there but people just cut in front of you.
Not one but 6! I won't be so angry if they just get one person
to buy for all 7 of them at least i get to laugh at how pathetic she is,
i know it's evil but it gives me some entertainment while waiting.
But they were so rude, the squeeze their way between me
and that woman, totally ignoring my existence.
And they are all from NIE,
teachers to be and behaving like this?!
The whole purpose of a queue is to facilitate so that everyone
gets their fair share of waiting.
If you are going to buy for 6 other person,
at least give me some mental preparation,
by having at least 2 representative in the queue.
That would at least give a hint that i am expected to wait longer.
I know it doesn't make a big difference theoretically.
But it will totally not make me so pissed.

ok I'm done bitching about my life.

I'm 21

2009-09-12T21:19:00.001+08:00

21st is indeed memorable.
The good ones!
I thank all my beloved friend who send their blessings,
be it through facebook, mobile phones or in person, which is the best!

Especially to miss kiwi who moved me to tears with her princessy shop's cake
and my favourite rose.
Best friend ever..(blinking with my totally fake lahes at you!)

To my dear sarah, who's always there to console me these years.
No matter right or wrong, you are always by my side and bitch with me.

To sweet peisin, I love your necklace
and thanks for always being there to mug with me late into the night.
Although the bridge "separates" us but we will never be apart!

To my buddies, know you guys are locked up,
thanks for remembering my birthday in the midst of your
tough training or continual slacking(for the medic). haha

To my dear psychology mates, the first handmade card I have received!
So thoughtful and great results despite the last min effort and the wrong age.
So glad I look young! And still being able to pass off as 19 :)

To Ivan, love your champagne chocolates and catching up with you.
Thanks for making every effort to celebrate with me.

To mr lee, so sorry for the inconvenience caused.
Although it's not a smooth celebration, many thanks to you still,
for being there all these years.

And lastly, to you, the so called my one and only best friend throughout these years
and my greatest disappointment, is a question that's bothering me.
Am i not worth the tiny fraction of your 24 hours and that 15 cent,
or you haven't realise that my birthday has past without your realising?

changes in life

2009-09-03T00:34:00.012+08:00

my new school: NTU, this the clear beautiful sky that i get to see everyday
(maybe except when it rains. But i like raining days too!)
Took this when i was on my way to lee wee nam library to print notes.
Love studying late into the night in NTU, it's really like my second home.
How i wish I'm living in the hall now.....even just for 1 night.

Went for the Executive cafe's buffet lunch with peisin and qiu hui.
From our seats we get a good view of the road junction, and vice versa
we were worried that people can up skirt us! But we do enjoy the nice view of peisin's school from there.

And this is the lousy food. They have a total of less than 15 dishes to choose from
(fruits included).That explains their lousy business.... There's no variety and quality.

This kid love contacting me cause apparently, I'm the only one
on her msn contact list apart from her sister and the only one on
her contacts in her mobile phone.
So as and when I'll receive msgs from her,
asking me what I'm doing in broken English.
I'm her English tutor.

On our long journey to expo exhibition hall 4 on a fine friday morning whereby
we both skipped school to earn our precious 144 dollars.
Me, with my new ugly fringe. I tried to redeem my sin by layering it.
It's nicer, according to what qiuhui said.
Well since my dear buddy, wuzhong, didn't comment anything on my fringe's ugliness
when he came and fetched me from work
(after he booked out from his camp on a friday night!).
I shall be convinced that is it not super ugly but ugly.
Was damn touched by my dear buddy....

This is taken on our Anglers Club's first activity. FISHING!
It was damn funny, we were fishing at Nanyang lake on one evening.
After like 1 whole hour,the sky got pretty dark
and we were straining our eyes to see the fishing line.
And, that was when we realised that the whole time,
there was no float attached to our fishing line.
We can't see when the fish is on bait.
That's most likely why the fish came,bit and gone.
Leaving us empty handed,
watching the others setting their huge catfish free after they caught it.

PS: I'm so glad i can finally upload my photos.

无聊生活第一章

2009-08-29T21:28:00.000+08:00

今天睡了16个小时。
原因：昨天为了$72而站了14个小时。
明天也要这样。
在8.45 就要到expo hall 4。

没想到我的生活竟如此的无聊。
讨厌无法将时间填满的一天。
这样的一天是我想东想西的。。。
简单的说，就是活在过去。

活在时间停留的7月前。

现在有多了一个顾虑。
一个我怎样都帮不上忙，
却怎样都无法忘怀的事。

为什么我还没21岁就已经活在过去里？
为什么我爱的人，永远都在伤害我?
为什么我的人生这样的戏剧性？
还是戏里的剧情真的是生活写照？
人长大了，见识多了，
这些剧情就开始慢慢的发生在自己身上。

分手后还爱着他，是种LOSER的表态吗？
更何况是这么这么久以前了。

如果说21岁真的很特别，
那我希望那天我可以不要想起他，或她。

23-08-09

2009-08-24T22:41:00.000+08:00

昨晚，我被一个我曾经很重视在乎的人耍。
但是，心中除了愤怒，尽然还有点说不出的感觉。
不管怎样，就到这里了。

不想为了他在搞得自己失去目标，虽然现在还没。
但我正努力享受！

13-8-09

2009-08-14T00:11:00.003+08:00

Okay first day of school is horrendous.
I was late for school.
I was lying in bed thinking wth...
why hasn't the alarm rang.
So to assured myself i went to check my phone.
It's 8.00.
I set my alarm at 7am
obviously it rang and i switch it off.
without realising that i did.
So i heard my mum saying"你也迟到了阿"

I had to cab, to school. And it cost me $10 including booking fee.
It's like i practically told him how to drive there and
the journey was less than 10 mins!
But still, the driver didn't consider the fact that i was his assistant for the past
ten mins and charged me $10 nonetheless.

so I was late.
And because i was late.
I didn't get to socialise with anyone else.
But i saw my sec2 classmate. she was happily sitting with her og.
WHY? why did their whole og manage to get the same elective?

I did not become the queen as a result.
BUT........

I got my econ elective!
I think my 6th sense is superb!
Being awaken abnormally early, i can't help
but fall asleep while checking for vacancy.
Yet i feel the strong urge to wake up at 5 plus.
It's like i know there is a vacancy waiting for me.
So i woke up and
YEAH!
econ has 1 vacancy waiting for me!!!!
woohooo
life can't be any better other than having no friends in lecture
and waking up late.

I'm gonna be the queen

2009-08-12T20:51:00.000+08:00

of Fundamental Physics lecture.

Cause i failed to get any of my desired electives.
So out of desperation.
I registered for Physics, the only one that has 1 vacancy.
I was really desperate..to get my 15 AUs.

SO now i know no one from my elective.
And as suggested by my ogmate who's in the same situation.
WE ARE GOING TO SAY THIS.
Hi, I'm bla bla bla
I've got no friends in this course.
Would you like to be my friend?

That way we will be the queen of the course, as told.

And now, I have to wake up early tomorrow morning to find LT27.
It's going t be a really tough job.
Was searching for LT1A with kiwi today,
for the police force intership talk.
We saw people carrying their goodies bag
so we thought" hey we should be nearing it"
Well we were until we decided to bypass it and continue our hunt.
So in the end i've got no goodies bag no talk and nothing but a wasted trip.

6/8/9

2009-08-06T18:47:00.000+08:00

I don't know why my photo on the matriculation card showed a
BAKED face.

I didn't manage to get my NTU jacket, because i overslept
or rather i didn't realise that they are giving in the student union talk.
Instead of the HSS Welcome Day.

At least i got myself a better understanding of the course timetable.
Have been trying to allocate my electives and PEs.
I realise that my timetable in the star planner doesn't coincide.
But i'm gald that now they've finally decided to tell me the discrepancy
and i can continue with my timetable planning.

For the upcoming week,

I ONLY HAVE TO GO NTU ON FRIDAY!!!!!
because tuesday's lecture has been cancelled and no
TUTOIRIALS for the first week.
woohooo!!!!!!!!
year 1 is slack!!!
I'm gonna take more electives to fill up my timetable.
I"m gonna take 6 courses so that i can clear as many as possisble.

ok actually i wanted to upload my baked face but my link doesn't work.
SO that's it
.....

26-07-09

2009-07-26T01:19:00.003+08:00

我对她又爱又恨。
我爱她的天真可爱，
恨她的啰嗦。

今天，她问我：表姐，这双鞋是干嘛的？
我答：是练小腿的。
她又问：是不是把小腿练成大腿的？
。。。
后来我侧躺在地上看电影，她也跟着躺下。
两人型成L字。
而她就这样躺在我的胸部上十五分钟。
我问：躺在表姐的胸部爽嘛？
她说：什么是胸部？
根她解释完后，她摸着平坦的胸口问我：那我有没有？

我不知道要如何回答她。
她只有5岁，但个子就像3岁小孩。
我爱她的纯真。

但当她连续6次问我：表姐，那你手机有没有带去？
我就开始烦躁了。
原来，我也会栽在一个小孩手里。

最爱她自信满满的说：那我出一道很难的给你答，100+100 等于多少？
却又在尝试劝她吃饭时将所有的爱耗尽。

那天在搭车的途中，忽然觉得，
原来，我真的不挑。
回头看那我爱过的人，却说不出我为什么放不下。
一个人对我好，说他喜欢我，
我就义无反顾的爱他。
却忘了我爱他什么.
到头来，只换来失恋收场。
经历了这么多，
我却始终不学乖。

我反复思考，到底哪里出错了？
盼望突然觉悟的那天。

22-07-09

2009-07-23T00:47:00.004+08:00

I just can't find my way to the supreme court.
Life has been boring so far.
Have stopped work for about 3 weeks already.
Nothing much happen, except for the usual dramas.
The third time.....
Psychology camp is coming.
Looking forward to it, cause it's only 2day 1 night.
Less troublesome than the HSS camp which is 5 day 4 night.
Quiet glad that I my reply form late and was not selected.
Think it's gonna be some sort of an island wide thing.
Cause I was told that it's gonna end at pasir ris!
I have to ride home from pasir ris.....

It has almost become a routine.
My shopping therapy, whenever it comes to a breakup.
Draining my bank account with useless purchases....

Remember the last time it happened,
I spent 120bucks on a useless lifetime guarantee hair straightener,
when it's available at 50 bucks at Watsons.

And I realise the amount of money I spent if proportional
to how much he meant to me.
so was quite glad that I stopped at a non disastrous
amount this time round.
A bit of improvement:)

Tmr's gonna be a busy day.
Going to try my luck finding my way to supreme court from city hall.
And meeting my NCC pals for dinner at vivo!

18-07-09

2009-07-18T20:18:00.002+08:00

心情跌到了谷底。
短短的一个半月，
我的世界变了样。

有些事情说多了也是没用，
不了解的还是不懂。
了解的也爱莫能助。

表面的洒脱，却恰恰的反衬出心里的伤痛。
空虚。无助。悲伤。失落。
更恰当的说法应该是很多种情绪的混合。

以前的想法，被他们摧毁了。
以前开朗的笑声，被他们捂住了。
以前的那个我，被他们埋葬了。

不是因为再次告别了一段感情而有感而发。
而是因为我发觉我渐渐的失去了自我。

有个特别的人，
他说我没变。
我觉得我变了。
我不在那么有主见，变得脆弱。

但我的眼泪却变得跟坚强。
它不再那么轻易的掉下。

它往心里流。。。
留下更悲伤的泪痕。

希望会有那么一天，
一个人能看到我心里那斑斑的泪痕。
将它洗尽，看得出那是真心的付出。

love it

2009-07-14T22:42:00.002+08:00

Lately I've been thinking about what I can do
I've been stressing to fall back in love with you
I'm so sorry that I couldn't follow through
But I can't go on this way. I've got to stop it babe
You've been wonderful in all that you can be
But it hurts when you say that you understand me
So believe me. I, I am sorry, I, I am sorry, I, I

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

I've been pushing hard to open up the door
Trying to take us back to where we were before
But I'm done. I just can't do this anymore
'Cuz we can't be mended, so let's stop pretending now
We've been walking around in circles for some time
And I think we should head for the finish line
So believe me. I, I am sorry, I, I am sorry, I, I

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

I, I.. I'm so sorry baby
But I, I.. I gotta pack up and leave
But I, I'll always remember how we came close
..to being how I wanted to be
I wanted you baby
I wanted you

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

11-07-09

2009-07-11T22:55:00.003+08:00

今天的心情是这首歌。
第三天了。
很想做些什么，但是还是忍住了。
他需要认真思考自己想要的。
我也不希望像以前一样，
只活在爱别人的世界里。
我要为自己而活。
不能放纵爱你，就放过自己。

09/07/09

2009-07-09T22:41:00.004+08:00

如果时间可以倒退，
我希望能放慢脚步。
在爱你一遍。

我们之间曾有过的一切，
那短暂飞逝的记忆。
依然活在回忆里。

The truth hurts
and lies worse.
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel.
And i can't tell you anything that ain't real.

7/7/09

2009-07-07T02:21:00.003+08:00

如果你爱上一个人，
你会偶尔想牵起她的手。
通过那霎那的接触，表达那真心的关怀。

如果你爱上一个人，
你不会嫌弃她的幼稚。
因为那在你眼里是种真诚的表现。

如果你爱上一个人，
你会因为爱她而变得成熟。
因为心里会无故的萌起想照顾她的念头。

如果你爱上一个人，
承诺或许不必挂在嘴里。
但你心里明白世上没有什么事能夺走你想对她好的冲动。

我也想要爱上这样的人。
如果你不能做到。

非诚无扰

1/7/2009

2009-07-01T23:20:00.002+08:00

Someone just let me into a very big secret.
And now i am totally lost.
Now i know how it feels to wake up in a totally different world

I DON'T KNOW WHO TO TRUST.

I'm so gonna faint now.

21/6/09

2009-06-21T01:00:00.003+08:00

I don't know if i can trust again.
I am LOST.
Every since.....that day.

But i really hope that you know i appreciate you.
Having you to hold my hands when we cross the road.
It's the thought that's displayed through this little gesture that warms my heart.
Having you asking me if i have eaten, even though you know
it's well past my break time.
Having you calling me every night to chat with me,
no matter how tired you are.
Having you to share my troubles,
listening to my grumbles, and tolerating my mood swings.
Getting a message from you when i'm down.
Thank you, dear, for coming into my life.
I may not be ready yet, but i promise you that i will be.
Soon..

so...

2009-06-14T00:44:00.002+08:00

I was wondering for the past few days what has happen,
why are things the way they were.
Until i was enlightened by a kind heart.
So i have always been a nuisance to someone
and I didn't know.
I didn't know that she jokes with me.
BUT she can't take jokes.
She criticises other people
BUT she can't take comments.

It's all so childish yet i feel hurt.
Like going back to primary school days
when girls quarrel over best friends and "bestest" friend.
Maybe xu shu's right, or her words were mere crap.
But it cheered me up.

Buddy's going back china tmr and i only knew it tonight,
when he surprise visit me.
What a bastard.
Going back for 6 days and only gave me one can of stella.
Some times it is so much easier being friend with guys.
They mean what they say.
They don't bear grudges.
Love my guy friends!
And my dear.

10/06/09

2009-06-11T00:20:00.002+08:00

原来

我已经好久没有甜蜜的感觉了。
笑着和人聊天到凌晨，一点一不累。
莫名其妙的想起他。
时不时的担心他过的怎样。

原来
不是脆弱的人才需要他人疼爱。
疼爱一个人是如此自然的事--但你爱上一个人时。

最近身边发生了好多事情．
有好有坏.
有的结婚,有的离婚．
倒地是什么注定两个人的遭遇？

2/6/09

2009-06-02T23:42:00.003+08:00

很甜蜜的一首歌.
听在耳里,心里暖暖的.

但是，眼睛要雪亮．
往往最初的陷阱就是这些甜言蜜语．

不会忘记那时的你.
但是经得起时间的考验的情感
才是最简单的甜蜜．

29/05/2009

2009-05-29T22:53:00.004+08:00

今天，五月二十九号.
需要一点轻松愉快的歌曲，
这样这天才不会那么难度过.
很感谢兄弟来接我下班.
连他都懂。

The photos...

2009-05-28T23:40:00.007+08:00

The last picture of me with straight hair.

I don't really wanna say this,
but we're the creators of the ugly cake below.

wai kiet doing the writing cause
surprisingly his handwriting is neater than mine.

This is the one.

Mother's day gift for both mums :)

Went to the flyer with my girlfriends today.
We had the whole cabin to the four of us.
Not that fun actually....
and the view isn't that picturesque.
Plus...it's super foggy today.
So we ended up taking photos in every weird pose
we could think of at that time.
I'm lazy.
So I'll upload it another time.

Going back to IMM to work tmr.
Kind of funny, initially they change me to someone else
cause i can't report to work earlier on 27th.
Now, they want me back.
I guess it's really time for a change of environment.
Two months at club Atlantis has changed me.
Darker eye circles and more obvious eye bags
the result of sleeping at 4am in the morning for 2 months.
And i really can't stand guys now, except those around me now,
guys like wei kun and wuzhong, who has a firm stand against
..................
you girls should know what I'm referring to.(That's why i love you ppl!)

Running errands for mum tomorrow morning so it's time for me to go
for my early sleep.

13/05/09

2009-05-13T00:54:00.003+08:00

I just spent about 15 mins trying to connect my phone to the com
so that i can upload the photos i took.
Somehow i failed still a techno dinosaur.
So forget it.
There shall be no photos in this blog post.

1)Been working 6-3am for the past 4 days.
Totally drained. And it's for mere 5 dollars.
I have to stand for 3 hours to cover my manicure expanses
and get it chipped off at work.
That's why i made the wise decision to quit.
The funniest thing is being a part timer, quitting that job
takes about 3 weeks.

2)Went clubbing with sarah , kuok howe and his friends last week.
Not a bad experience, being taken care of by 3 nice and cute guys.

3)Received my invitation to the Dean's Tea Party at Pan Pacific today.
Wondering if i can bring a guest, i don't wanna go alone.

4) Celebrated mother's day with 2 bouquet of roses,
and dinner at ichban sushi. Those were the photos i wanna
upload(yea..not my clubbing photos cause we forget to take.)
but failed.

5) I can't believe qiuhui when she told me what she had done.
haha it's damn funny the way she described it....
Sadly i don't have her permission to blog about it.
So my girlfriends find out from her, it's her open secret.
hahaha

5/5/09

2009-05-05T23:23:00.002+08:00

Got my letter from NTU today!
They gave me my second choice.....Psychology!
Don't really know what's my feeling towards it.
That's not what i wanted most although i've been
hoping to get it.
Happy or worried?
No idea.

1/5/09

2009-05-03T15:04:00.001+08:00

I saw you yesterday,
It's been a while
You tried but failed
At holdin' back your smile right then
It's not over yet, I knew, for you

I couldn't sleep
I thought of nothin' else
I needed help
Everyone was tellin' me
You were movin' on with someone else
But what we had was so special
People can be jealous, oh
I had to see it for myself

I can see it in your eyes
You feel the same about us as I
There is no way the truth can be disguised
You're still in love with me
You were never really out of love with me
Your eyes don't lie

I know I hurt you
I know you are hurtin' still
But I'll make it up to you
Yeah, baby, I will
'Cause what we had was so special
You know we can't give it up
Now that I'ma lookin' at you I can see

I can see it in your eyes
You feel the same about us as I
There is no way (there is no way) the truth can be disguised (there is no way)
You're still in love with me
You were never really out of love with me
Your eyes don't lie
And they never will, girl

Oh, now that I know
We were apart but your heart never let go
So thank you for showin' me with one look
What used to be, and still is, a possibility

I can see it in your eyes
You feel the same about us as I
There is no way the truth can be disguised
You're still in love with me
You were never really out of love with me
Your eyes don't lie
Your eyes don't lie

12/04/2009

2009-04-13T15:26:00.004+08:00

我依然沉溺在回忆的海底
就快没了呼吸
突然听见自己心跳如此清晰
如今还活在你的过去

我曾经相信会遇到那个人
或许能把你代替
降温的冷空气留着你的气息
我对于遗忘还无能为力

爱还为你保留了位置
就算你背影如今已渐渐的消失
oh 爱是无法改变的位置
如果能再一次我还是这样的坚持

爱还为你保留了位置
就算我的心还依然充满了未知
oh 爱是无法改变的位置
失去你只是残忍的事实

多希望这是别人的故事

也许某个早晨当阳光洒进来
我会突然醒来
把位置空出来不再为你而等待

分手3个月了，听了这首歌
我还是哭了。
原来一切没改变过。
我原来不愿放手。

5/4/09

2009-04-05T00:41:00.003+08:00

I wish I could quit you.
But as and when you surfaced in my mind.
None of the bad times linger,
wish I could remember more of you.
Everyday I awake to realize that
the night before i told myself to stop loving you.
Yet, it is an endless cycle.
I never bothered to put a deadline to it,
for I know it will never succeed.
Time will heal
that's what they all told me.
But have they ever understood what I'm in?

Finally i met up with my buddies.
Went out for a April fool dinner with wuzhong.
It was his treat cause i lent him 10 bucks before he went back to china.
And....i got free dinner and movie!
New york new york was nice so was the root beer float.
The movie's not too bad, The Unborn, find it kind of gross with
the old man's head twister and still crawling...
Not forgetting that i actually rush all the way from cck to tuas
just because i believed my girlfriends on April fool.
Stupid jokes about xiaowei losing her camera,quarrelled with her best friend and needing comfort. And i actually cab there and bought a bouquet of roses.

Stupid me.

Caught another movie with kiwi the day before,
The Departure,it well deserve the 4 star rating from the press.
Cause it's damn touching especially the last part when he was performing
the ritual for his dad. Saw kiwi crying non stop at the last part.
God, it was the first time i saw her cry, other than hearing her on the phone.

Maybe my girlfriends are right, i should keep myself away from him.
In case i really gave him the wrong impression and screw up his family.
Been trying to talk to him less these days, but it feels awkward.
It's like avoiding someone when you feel damn sure that
what you feel towards him is not love. But well, i just have to try my best
so that i won't land myself in a disastrous state----being the third party.

可以不爱吗

2009-03-24T23:53:00.007+08:00

随着你的步伐

我的心跳加快

知道你向我走来
心中浮现一种莫名期待
这就是爱

第二次的相爱

因为你的回来
阳光你温暖怀抱
无悔最后你我各自精彩
这就是爱

你转过身收起以往的光彩
我不得不爱
你从前的勇敢不再
披上了虚伪的色彩
埋葬了我一直的爱

随着你的步伐
心也沉了下来
知道你离我而去
剩下我孤独重温着过去
我依然爱

那是自私的放弃
还是伟大的割爱
我只知道我们不在相爱

你转过身收起以往的光彩
我不得不爱
你从前的勇敢不再
披上了虚伪的色彩
埋葬了我一直的爱

可以不爱吗
最后问你这句话
为心里留下永远的悲哀

你丢下一句
否决了我的爱
只想最后知道
可以不爱吗

baby

2009-03-20T00:08:00.006+08:00

This cute baby just love searching my bag for my pink
BIMBO wallet...

First she took out my wallet and then my pencil box.
I placed the wallet behind her and she so cute!
she didn't realise that!

managed to open my pencil box and took out all my pen.

ha ha and this is how she look when she failed

random pictures

2009-03-17T22:01:00.008+08:00

this is an image of kiwi's butt

took this while talking crap with wuzhong at vivo

trying to curl each other's hair with the $120 hair straightener.
I look like my sis! And 10 years older

Most spastic smile ever, thanks to the fringe.
qiu hui's revenge cause i screw up her hair.

Reliving past memories....erm...some what 3 years back.

I don't know what she's doing here. haha

15/03/2009

2009-03-15T22:20:00.002+08:00

Just read through my older posts.
Realised that i haven't changed at all.
Be it the first time or the second time.

I've a buddy, a real complicated person.
I have no idea what really happened to him that
made him who he is now,
but whatever he has told me totally freak me out.
I used to think that guys aren't as bad as they might seem to be.
But I'm wrong.
So, guys can be together with a girl that they
DON'T really LOVE. for some reasons......

Maybe I'm really stupid,
cause that's his only comment on my failed relationship.
He said everyone see it, it's just you!
But i still believe that if you feel that he's the right person for you,
then don't be calculative of how much you are putting in.

But in some ways he's right.

He said"give and take is a natural process"
You are just wanting him back cause you've put in efforts in him.
Is it as simple as that?
Love is just like trade?

I'm done with the last thing that i set out to do.
And now it's time to made good of my words.
To do what is best for me.

12/03/2009

2009-03-12T21:52:00.003+08:00

在你离开的那天我没有哭
不认为我会感觉得到伤痛
直到我遇到陌生的你

我们当初的单纯怎么了
那个当朋友的约定呢
告诉我, 怎样才能说出口

可能吗一切不曾改变?
随着时间的流逝, 你想带走
你曾经以为拥有的一切

你看到吗? 以前的那个你?
那个我放手后失去的你
我认识的你怎么了

我必须从这场梦境中清醒
停滞不前的困境
我必须将你从记忆中抹去

如果我倒下你会接住我吗
你肯花时间去怀疑这一切吗
告诉我, 怎样才能说出口

可能吗一切不曾改变?
因为时间已经流逝, 你已经
带走我们曾经拥有的一切.

你看到吗? 以前的那个你?
那个我放手后失去的你
我认识的你怎么了

因为时间渐渐夺回
我以为我们拥有的一切
希望你能说的出口

可能吗一切不曾改变?
因为时间已经流逝, 你已经
带走我们曾经拥有的一切.

你看到吗? 以前的那个你?
那个我放手后失去的你
我认识的你怎么了
我认识的你怎么了

11/03/2009

2009-03-11T22:33:00.002+08:00

I will never abort my baby nor kill her/him after birth.
I can never understand how she could do it.
And freak out when she's just a block away.
No matter how...my baby is the best present on earth

午中明天就回国去陪他的女人了.
好羡慕,而且他还买了份好特别的礼物给她.
原来远距离的恋爱,是有可能萌芽的.
不管是欠她,爱她还是愧疚,那都是一种付出.
看到兄弟那样的归心似箭就觉得

爱一个人是幸福的.

朋友要结婚了.
表姐要结婚了.
朋友曾经跟我说过:
朋友经的起平静,却不能共患难,
爱人经的起患难,却不能挨平静.
她现在却找到了那个可以跟她共平静的人.

是真是假那句话,只能由时间来揭晓.

Just came back from beauty world and i trash wei koon in pool!!!!
Won 3 rounds in a row and he only managed to win once!
Haha nobody is as lucky as I am.
Glad that i've finally improve after such a long time.
At last i know how to angle it such that it will score!

Got to finish up my scarf....

nice song......

2009-03-07T12:57:00.002+08:00

A Little Too Not Over You

Tell me why you are so hard to forget.
Don't remind me i"m not over it.
Tell me why i can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you.
Memories suppose to fade what's wrong with my heart..
...

check out his song "crush" it's so sweet...
too bad i can't put it on my blog.

6/3/09

2009-03-06T20:04:00.002+08:00

not too bad not too good
brings me nowhere.

What the hell was i thinking.
Definitely not in the right mind when i did
what i've done this afternoon.

Just checked out the 3 main uni
and it's so so....

In case you are lazy and didn't want to check out.
Here are the links:

NTU: http://www3.ntu.edu.sg/oad2/pdfs/COP.pdf
NUS: http://admissions.nus.edu.sg/sprogramme-igp.html
SMU: http://www.smu.edu.sg/admissions/downloads/pdf/Samp%20Notif%20(SMU)%20COP%20FINAL%20with%20FAQs.pdf

3/3/09

2009-03-03T13:31:00.001+08:00

Good news and bad news.
Finally one of my friend got married!
A level results is on this friday.

26/02/2009

2009-02-27T18:15:00.002+08:00

Went crazy last evening while rotting at home with qiu hui.
It's normal i guess, after sending tons of resume...
And getting no replies.

So we went off for an hour of train ride and arrived at
EAST COAST.
Actually we were only making the trip there for the sake of the sea breeze,
but it turned out to be more for the food.
Cause we were seriously damn hungry when we arrived.
So we ended up in a bar that's around area C, can't remember it's name.
But they serve awesome food.
We ordered their On Rack Special and it's so huge!
It's pork ribs with samba chili sauce,
their cocktails were not bad too.
I had tequila sunrise and qiu hui order Manhattan.
Hers was so damn concentrated and hard to swallow
but mine was quite fruity and smooth. Just like fruit juice.
And i paid $14 for that.
But still i find it more worthwhile than qiu hui's cause hers
came in such stingy amount that heavy drinkers can finish it in one gulp.

After our meal we moved on to our favourite spot----------
the breakwater.
It was suppose to be romantic drinking session with chips and lollipops.
Yet, with the company of thousands of cockroaches,
we can't help being DISGUSTED.

We thought we were clever to throw some chips at far away places and
lure them there.
It ended up that we were no match for them,
so we moved from one end of the break water to another.
Sad...

And i thought lady luck was on my side cause i picked up 10 cent on my way out.
I really think so cause i was having second thoughts for this job that offers only $4 per hour
and just when i decline it the boss called back to offer me $6.
Shouldn't have been so hesitant.
I should have just agreed. Cause when i called back today, somebody else
took it for mere $4. What has the world come to?
Why is people downgrading themselves?

Got to continue my job hunt before i deplete my savings.

共鸣。。。

2009-02-19T21:33:00.003+08:00

吃不能吃睡不能睡
沒有了你全都不對
我都學不會把愛敷衍
用笑容來把眼淚催眠
笑不能笑哭不敢哭
人不像人鬼不像鬼
朋友都說這不過失戀
但我卻連呼吸都膽怯

能不能不愛了因為愛太痛了
我痛得快死了卻無法把你忘了
能不能不愛了愛情它太痛了
我痛得快死了卻無法把愛割舍
我不能睡吃不能吃睡不能睡沒有了你
全都不對我都學不會把愛敷衍
用笑容來把眼淚催眠

能不能不愛了因為愛太痛了
我痛得快死了卻無法把你忘了
能不能不愛了愛情它太痛了
我不能夠不能夠不愛了

能不能不愛了因為愛太痛了
我痛得快死了卻無法把你忘了
能不能不愛了愛情它太痛了
我不能夠不能夠不愛了

11/2/2009

2009-02-11T22:39:00.003+08:00

我要与世隔绝了。
我无法承受这些一再堆砌的情绪。
像陷在沼泽中，无法逃脱。

爱情是将自己的心一点一滴的给了他。
当你给完了，而他又不小心的离开了，
你会发现自己只剩一半。

最近，我迷上了海滩。
看着海浪席卷而来。
反反复复，
感觉它在为我删洗那些过去。
有时候，记忆会在你最不留意时，
狠狠地捅你一刀。
越想忘记就越记得。
你放手却捆住了我。

Heard from qiuping that the A level results will
be released on 4th march.
SHIT.

11/2/2009

2009-02-11T22:29:00.003+08:00

我可能要过着与世隔绝的日子。

任何精神上的牵挂，我都无法克服。

好像整身都陷入泥沼之中，

越想挣脱，就越陷越深。

爱情是把你的心一点一滴的给了另一个人。

但你给完时，他离开时，你只剩下一半。

所以你会牵挂，

所以你会舍不得。

但你所能做的是看着他离开。

9/2/2009

2009-02-09T22:54:00.004+08:00

天下起雨了.
不管我往哪里躲,
雨滴毫不留情的往我脸上拍打.
突然好想你.

雨过天晴了,
阳光照耀下的水株闪闪发亮.
路过的行人,
带着友善的笑容.
突然好想你.

打开家门,
看着熟悉的情景.
那套你曾坐过的沙发,
那个你曾用过的杯杯.
那个我忘不了的味道.
突然好想你.

夜深了,
在打这篇的我,
独自对msn发呆.
听着你喜爱的歌,
看着你说过的电影.
突然好想你.

7/2/2009

2009-02-08T13:31:00.006+08:00

Got woke up early in the morning by Xushu's mum.
So i went to her house and had breakfast.
This is the scheming little girl whom i always talk about.
Will never forget how she betrayed me and her sister
after she's gotten her ice cream!
Can't help missing and hating her at the same time.
She's so hard to handle yet so cute!!!!

This was taken by Wuzhong after his confinement.
We finally met up at Bugis and he finished 4 double cheese burgers.
Crazy! RIGHT? Not only that ,another two large coke.
Can't seem to understand his thirst for coke.
Plus....
He find this (that logo) amusing-Ronald MacDonald throwing rubbish.
Do ns really change a guy that much?
Wuzhong remember this:女人容易动情，更重感情。

Meet up with the thunder warrior people
(jimmy. kian guan. clifton.yuesheng. jasmine)
after a long chat with my buddy.
Went to this xiandelai steamboat.
No comments.....
After the steamboat, we proceed to jimmy house for icewine and mahjong!
The wine is really really sweet and refreshing.
Now i know why it is so expensive!
$99 for 375ml of it from a duty free shop.
It's made from grapes that's frozen while still on the vine
and very little production....
Thanks lots to jimmy for the hospitality!!!
Some more... they taught me the Singaporean style mahjong.
Finally after living in Singapore for 13 years, i learnt how to calculate
the number of "tai" and the different kind of "hu"
Had to cab back all the way from hougang though
and the fare is super ex EX!!!
Luckily jasmine is there to share my burden.
Ops before i forget.
This time round I'm not going to get
qiuhui to help me get vodka when she comes back.
I want icewine...
can't forget the refreshing sweetness and it's smoothness.
(Do you even discribe that as smooth? whatever it is, try it and you'll KNOW.)

6/2/2009

2009-02-06T23:45:00.004+08:00

Did some shopping today.
Cause xushu said pampering myself would be a good way out.
So from left to right: YSL nail colour, shade 2 concealer,
super pink lip colour and lip balm.
The lip balm is amazing! wanna know why?
It exfoliates dead cells on your lips and it is EDIBLE!!!!!!
Haha it really works and instantly all the
dead skins on the lips are gone.
It's got a fruity taste,
it's so sweet yet so gross cause if you really eat it...
You're swallowing all your dead cells.....

The lip colour is amazing, it make me look super fair.
Although I'm already fair.
But i know what my buddies probably gonna say when they see me wearing it.
A quote from qiuhui "totally you!!!! So bimbo....."

The concealer, most expensive of all, is for my right cheek.
Those who know me well enough to get a close up view of my cheek will probably
notice that big patch of dry skin there.
Can't seem to find out what caused the irritation.
But since it doesn't heal so all i can do is
COVER it.
It's damn cool, like a ball point pen, before you use it you have to click it!

Lastly, the nail colour. It cost me $32,
only felt the pinch when i saw that it contains only 10ml!
What the hell.... the bottle is like so big but it's only got 10ml of content.

Took this photo about two weeks ago when i went to east coast park to
散心. I think it's very well taken :)

Oh yar.....i watched the underworld 3 today with Sarah.
Not a bad show but Sarah's complaining that Sonja shouldn't die.
Well i guess it's what that make the show more memorable.
Happy endings don't leave deep impression.
I just can't help wondering why can't Lucian transform into a werewolf
and break free from the chains when she's left to die.
If he could do it after she died, when he saw Viktor,
why couldn't he do it when he knew that his love was going to die in front of him?!
Isn't the sadness of losing your love ones,
dying before you. greater than hatred towards Viktor?
Or the arrows they fired at him actually prevents him from transforming?
Honestly, since Viktor was the most powerful of the three elder why Lucian defeated him so easily....
Their duel was suppose to be the exciting part but yet so short......